*gasp*
I know, right?!
Hear me out… I really think that I’ve been so positive of my beliefs for so long that I’ve become the very thing I hate the most. Closed-minded and only capable of seeing what I’ve already seen.
I’m not looking for a change of heart and to be honest, I don’t think I’ll find it.
But I feel like if I’m so positive of what I’ve theorized myself, I should at least have the “facts” of other religions to back up exactly WHY I think it’s bullshit.
I don’t want to find “faith” or “God” because I feel like no matter how much I read and no matter how much I absorb, I will not be convinced that there is a governing higher power. There has to be something, somehow. I believe there was an original creator, in a sense. I don’t think there is anything that micromanages our lives or anything that happened after the first -BAM there’s life-.
I do, however, think that I need to expand myself and my knowledge. My intuition and imagination. I need to do some work with how I approach life. The ideals of religion appeal to me far more than anything having to do with worship or faith in some force that keeps me safe and protects my eternal future. I think that’s all taken care of. I do care about healing myself through any sort of growth that I can possibly get, especially mentally. And that’s what I’m going for.
Wish me luck!
- January 7
- , 2012
