February 2012
You guys, I'm throwing a bitch fit.
My sister just texted me.
Before I left, this girl wouldn’t even say the word “crap” and she just sent me a text that had the phrase “sexy ass” in it.
She was talking about “sexy ass glasses” but dude.
She used the words “sexy” and “ass”.
She’s actually a teenager now. Oh my god.
What do I do? I’m not there and...
Things I probably should say but haven't...
Sometimes I look over your old Tumblr and smile to see that then I knew I made you happy.
I see the passion and love and lust.
I often wonder why the move up here broke pieces of what we had and who we are. It’s my fault that I let you slip. I let myself slip and I think that we may have hit the bottom together. I’m climbing back up and I don’t think I’ll outrun the...
high0nsunshine asked: hey! try to think of it another way. life goes on. it always will. you found a place you felt comfortable in, florida, maybe you'll go back someday, but either way, home is where you are, feel comfortable in your own skin!
I am so goddamn home sick right now
-_-
It’s depressing.
I know that I do not live in Florida. I know it, but I admittedly have not stopped thinking about this as an extended vacation. I know it’s not, but I can’t help feeling like it’s true.
I’m concerned about what happens when I go visit and I don’t stay - I leave. What kind of mental repercussions is that gonna cause?
o.o
I guess...
Oh. Well....
Currently facing that awkward moment when your boyfriend takes an optional day of work on Sunday when he was supposed to have off.
Too bad Sunday’s your birthday, right?
But it’s okay “it’s a short shift.”
“Oh! Wait, nevermind. 10am to 7pm.”
I am so very tired of feeling sick.
I am tired of being stressed and worried.
I am tired of being cold and not knowing if it’s actually cold out or if somehow my mood is draining me of heat.
I am tired of feeling alone for no apparent reason or for good reason and then being told I’m basically fucking insane because that’s not at all what the situation.
I am tired of being told that I don’t give a shit and...
Anonymous asked: Are you on drugs?
Have you ever gotten some news that could turn out...
Or researched and tried to uncover a little of the mystery and convinced yourself with those few results that things were fine?
Only to realize that you were probably looking in the wrong place? Because things are getting worse, not better…… and now that you’re looking at the whole picture, things make more sense?
Not in a good way….
The way that makes your stomach drop...
So you guys. I got new piercings last night.
o.o
I let Caleb pierce my nipples with a needle we bought at the farming store down the road that’s supposed to be used for cattle or something? But they seriously look EXACTLY like the gauged piercing needles that tattoo shops use.
So he shoved those through and laughed at me while I squeaked and screamed like a pussy up until we put in the barbells.
They’re fucking boss and so...
It's snowing and I'm on lunch.
I can’t even finish a cigarette because it’s so windy out there on top of the icy cold that I am STILL not used to and probably never will be.
-_-
I need a super long, hot bath.
I've said and done some terrible things.
I’m not always a nice person.
And that’s not a secret. Never has been. I don’t know why anyone would be shocked that I would say certain things.
The thing is, the people still in my life are there because they know that I’m not a bad person. I can be a manipulative bitch and I can be cruel, but generally not unless you deserve it. I’m a good friend when you give...
It's super foggy this morning.
The kind of foggy that you can see through with some sort of misty, comforting clarity until you try to look too far in front of you.
Oh, the life lessons that come with nothing but waking up in the morning. :)
January 2012
I have to put clothes on now...
But I really don’t feel like it.
Oh, wow.
I can not believe the number of people I know who have been to jail and have mugshots.
It’s a bit unbelievable.
HAHAHA. So, last night we were watching Ghost...
Caleb: So… I love you and stuff!!! :D
Katie: I love you MORE!
Caleb: Yeah, well I stuff you more….
So, you guys, I'm gonna read the Bible.
*gasp*
I know, right?!
Hear me out… I really think that I’ve been so positive of my beliefs for so long that I’ve become the very thing I hate the most. Closed-minded and only capable of seeing what I’ve already seen.
I’m not looking for a change of heart and to be honest, I don’t think I’ll find it.
But I feel like if I’m so positive of what...
It's been probably the weirdest week of my life.
High stress levels and many many worried thoughts.
Floods of memories and fears and strange dreams.
All with intervals of comfort and happiness and many other good things.
I don’t know which way is up.
December 2011
I have never felt more alone in my entire life.
GUYS, NEW PHONE, SAME NUMBER
Text me, call me, Facebook me, message me on Tumblr.
I don’t care.
But I need your numbers.
Do it.
I'm not sure if I feel bad for you or if I want to...
But if I ever have the pleasure of speaking to you, I will decide and I will tell you very realistically why.
It’s sad.
You seem smart, but very regular.
Not regular as in “you bring nothing special to the world”. Don’t get me wrong. I’m sure you do. I wouldn’t ever say that because I know your type, not your head and heart.
But I know what you’re...
I talked to my dad yesterday.
The second time since I left about 6 months ago.
And this time he called me.
He said he thought something might be wrong and he wanted to check.
I’m not sure what I think.
But at least it’s progress, right?
The Most Powerful Photos of 2011 →
Really worth a look. I promise.
Chicken salad.
It was delicious, thank you very much.
I don't know what kind of sandwich to make.
O.O
Homemade chicken salad, turkey, or a classic PB&J. Or a grilled cheese, but I don’t think I want that.
I DON’T KNOW. HELP ME????
I'm attempting the creation of my tattoo in...
o.o
It’s not working out the way I expected. I thought it would be an easier project.
But it’ll still be hot shit when I’m done, I think.