But I really don’t feel like it.
lmao. At this point, it’s almost like looking through old yearbooks.
“OH, I REMEMBER THEM”
“HAHAHA. Look, it’s my best friend!!! Hey _______, look at this picture I found of you!”
It’s crazy….
- January 27
- , 2012
I’M GOING TO START SAYING THIS IMMEDIATELY.
(via magena-monster)
I can not believe the number of people I know who have been to jail and have mugshots.
It’s a bit unbelievable.
This is a beautiful quote that really highlights the unfortunate truths of people in our modern society.
When you tell someone you love them, in most cases, you HAVE to use “I love you for this and this and this” because if you say “I love you despite this and this and this” it’s taken as criticism and an insult.
And that’s sad. Because this quote brings out the real truth about what love is. To love someone for many things and despite the ones that hurt or don’t settle correctly.
The problem, I think, is that everyone wants to be complimented and told they’re perfect because in some respects they believe they deserve that. And the fact is, they don’t. I think everyone deserves something REAL. And real is not blowing smoke up someone’s ass so they think they’re flawless or believing someone when they say these things.
Real is knowing that you have flaws and knowing that in most cases, they’re quite visible. Real is knowing that whoever you are with or your best friend or whoever is telling you they love and care for you actually knows these things and doesn’t try to overlook them because they love you for who you are DESPITE the fact that you’re not perfect.
(via ashesonqueenstreet)
Caleb: So… I love you and stuff!!! :D
Katie: I love you MORE!
Caleb: Yeah, well I stuff you more….
- January 8
- , 2012
*gasp*
I know, right?!
Hear me out… I really think that I’ve been so positive of my beliefs for so long that I’ve become the very thing I hate the most. Closed-minded and only capable of seeing what I’ve already seen.
I’m not looking for a change of heart and to be honest, I don’t think I’ll find it.
But I feel like if I’m so positive of what I’ve theorized myself, I should at least have the “facts” of other religions to back up exactly WHY I think it’s bullshit.
I don’t want to find “faith” or “God” because I feel like no matter how much I read and no matter how much I absorb, I will not be convinced that there is a governing higher power. There has to be something, somehow. I believe there was an original creator, in a sense. I don’t think there is anything that micromanages our lives or anything that happened after the first -BAM there’s life-.
I do, however, think that I need to expand myself and my knowledge. My intuition and imagination. I need to do some work with how I approach life. The ideals of religion appeal to me far more than anything having to do with worship or faith in some force that keeps me safe and protects my eternal future. I think that’s all taken care of. I do care about healing myself through any sort of growth that I can possibly get, especially mentally. And that’s what I’m going for.
Wish me luck!
It’s funny how I have never been so afraid, so stressed, and so unendingly worried all at once.
But I’ve also never been as happy.
I hope to god, or the universe, or whatever the fuck runs this shit - whatever force or order that drives this life and its events - that something changes for the best because I can’t stand to think about what would happen if it didn’t. I can’t help but feel personally responsible for not being able to make things better even though I know it’s not my fault.
I love you. I promise that something will change. I will do whatever I can to make something happen. To get some sort of progress. For you and us and the life / lives laid ahead of us.
(via -imtoosexyformyself)
Too bad life beat me to it, right??
God… I can’t even explain to you how much shit is on my emotional plate right now, if that makes any sense to you.
I’ve received the worst news and seen some things I never wanted to see within the past week specifically. And it doesn’t seem like it’s gonna end anytime soon.
I wish I could scream about my problems. About the problems of others that are tightly intertwined with my life. But I can’t. Because it’s no one’s business, no matter how much I wish they would help the situations. Or help me deal with them. Or just listen to what my mind is doing.
I can’t allow any of it to happen.
It sucks.
It really does.
I realized long ago how deep my attachments run. And now here I am watching the only two entities on the face of the earth that I don’t want to go a day without hit some tough times. Very tough.
And I may or may not be able to do anything about it.
And no one will know the severity of these situations I’m in. No one will know the pain I swallow every morning, every night, and every second I’m consciously thinking of anything at all.
I throw myself into coding and I sleep. Those are my only breaks. And the amount of peace they bring me is the bare minimum.
I need help and there’s nothing anyone could do even if I told them everything.
I am helpless.
And I hate that.
I resent it.
I’m beginning to resent myself because if I can’t change it, I should be able to just take it with no pain. No guilt. And it seems I’m incapable of something like that.
Absolutely not wired for it.
But at this point, I’m beginning to believe that I might be wired for destroying everything.
Can’t say I’m surprised, though. We all saw that coming.
(Source: notveryimportant, via kushr0lled)
High stress levels and many many worried thoughts.
Floods of memories and fears and strange dreams.
All with intervals of comfort and happiness and many other good things.
I don’t know which way is up.
- January 1
- , 2012
(Source: moon-critter)
- December 29
- , 2011
